(trying to write with a baby in my arms)

I'm not going to try to explain much of what's going on or how I feel at the moment, because it's too big, too many emotions, too many ups and downs, too much of raw life to make sense of it in writing. But I will say this: Although coming here with the responsibility of an infant with extra needs has been scary at times and many tears have been shed since we came back, being here makes me slowly come together again. I am home.